And that this was all God ever was

by Regis Boff

My God has changed a good bit over the years.
He grew up just like me
He was bigger when I was little.
I needed him to give me praise for what I did.
As I grew up we both got busy with other things
I learned that terrible things happen,
Things he would not change.
I could not figure out why.
Sometimes people without answers hated God.
And people who believed in him.
They hated me if I mentioned him.
This was easy to understand.
As I got old I decided God grows up inside us like a tree.
But this is hard to explain.
Because God is such a big word
To live in such a small space as us
And that this was all God ever was.