Unnoticed in Clever Worlds

The clearest description I have managed so far about my blog is that it is not about cats. In general, I find predators pretty predictable while prey on the other-hand, because they live in universes of anxiety, develop more textured personalities. I also have as a writer a deft hand when it comes to making matters worse, so of course , the already panicky are ready made for me. I will try to grow this blog into an assortment of laughs, because that is what my life has mostly taught me to do. I will use the famous people I have known to get your attention and then tell you small but many times wonderful things about them. I will never name the ones I say ugly things about but I hope you will guess who they are.

Month: April, 2020

I like being white

I like being white. It is easier. Everybody who is not white seems to believe that we hold everyone else back. I hope this is not the case but I suspect it is. We tend to keep to ourselves so people who are not white mostly overlook that whatever we are doing to them is nothing compared to what we do to each other.

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The Difference

The difference between love and hate is that you are ready to kill yourself for love, but you prepared to kill everyone else in hatred.

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Guess the year

I spent my evenings for twenty-five years in auditoriums, arenas or stadiums that contained between 1000 and 125,000 other people. Every goddamn one of those people remembers the day, and I can’t recall the year.

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Come out to play

As I sat outside this morning having coffee, I missed the sound of screen doors slamming from my childhood friend’s houses. It meant someone would come to play.

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The last thing words would do

Poetry is not something
that would occur to letters
unless you made them do it.

If words could use their own words,
they would not invite rhymes or
fuzziness
to their parties
of sentences.

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Bitch Slapping Mother Nature

In all of human history, we have never on mass said as a species,” No, we will not let Nature take a course.” We have always grimly accepted death; there wasn’t an alternative.
So now we have one. Medicine and science have finally said no.
Part of me senses that we have chosen out of philosophical privilege to pay a price that may exceed the value of the life we have spared.
My misguided generation was voided of traditional good sense because we had too much. Circumstances made us fortunate, so instead of hardness, we opted for superficial political meanness and hate. If we survive to an epitaph, it will most likely read, ” Very nice but wrong.”

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So here I am

The thing about a circle is that until it collides with where it started, it always appears to be going someplace.
My wife and I calculated twenty-six odd years ago that our children would be better off growing up in a place similar to Nebraska. They could shuffle about in rags with rods of hay dangling from their little mouths while mumbling, “Oh shucks,” just out of our earshot because they feared the woodshed.
We now live where everyone is flush with money. All of us actively participate in the affluent conceit that returning to pioneer mannerisms while still riding our snowblowers and donating that rarely looked at used Van Gogh to the grade school’s fencing auction is within our greedy reach.
Sadly, babies grow the way they want, no matter how rich the soil is that you put them in.
We are closing our circle now; our kids have grown, and we watch steady streams of new fantasy seekers arriving in our hamlet with their BMW station wagons and their penchants for ever higher speed bumps and ghoulish safety signs.
I could long reflect on the oddity of mimicking a life beneath my circumstance. That is if I gave a shit, or maybe a “shucks,” but I don’t.
Somewhere, profoundly hidden inside me, I strived hard to be this envied hypocrite. So here I am.

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PUBLISHED: April 24, 2018
FILED UNDER: Unnoticed in Clever Worlds

I am one

God’s last penalty is neatly in the plus column for me. I forget I have seen Netflix series at the same pace that new ones appear. I am one with the universe.

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The Child Who

The child to touch
is the one
who never laughs.
The child to kiss
is the one
who dreads it.
The child to hug
is the one
with arms wrapped
around themselves
when they are alone.

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PUBLISHED: April 21, 2019
FILED UNDER: Unnoticed in Clever Worlds

Lynyrd Skynyrd

The mirror buckled like an airless fighter punched in the midsection when the bottle hit it. Ronnie Van Sant had missed me.

I had just started working as the tour accountant for The Who and Pete Rudge. Rudge, (“A Star is Born”) was the tour manager/manager for The Rolling Stones and The Who in North America. He was also the manager of Lynyrd Skynyrd. He was a significant player in rock across the U.S at the time. I was the tour manager for Genesis which had broken up, and working for him was substantial for me.
He taught me how to do the show settlements for The Who. I ran his New York office while he traveled from band to band being what he was, extravagant. We booked tours for The Stones and waited for Jagger to cancel them.
One morning I was thrown into a limo, and we headed out to the airport to meet Ronnie Van Sant, the lead singer for Lynyrd Skynyrd. Rudge dreamed I would get along with him, so I could pretend I was him when he needed cover to pay attention to his other bands.
On the tarmac where his small jet had landed, Van Zant got off in his black hat and a bottle of Jack Daniels. Rudge muttered to me, “Welcome to Country Rock.” Noon was not just around the corner.
He gave Rudge a “country hug.” A regional embrace that is not gay.
He ignored me, didn’t shake hands, and staggered off to the car drinking as he went, we followed like eager toadies behind him.
I am large, and I know how people react to that.
Van Zant had decided, despite near panic-stricken denials from Rudge, that I was his bodyguard. He didn’t like it at all. I figured I had missed some country code just by being bigger than him.
We wind up in Pete’s fabulously posh apartment on Fifth Ave. Ronnie was now twenty more sheets to the wind and sitting on a sofa across from me watching me like I am an armed Ulysses S. Grant.
Even Rudge was now ignoring me as a lost cause while he chattered on about Lynryd Skynryd’s next album. I just sat there stupidly, sinking into unsmiling black humor.
From my point of view, this performer was mining impulses from Jupiter solely to fuck over what little career I now had left. I began returning his shit eye, wiring him the message that I, for one, was pleased with the Confederacy getting the shit kick out of it.
On top of this aggravation, I had spent two days memorizing the band member names and their instruments as I listened to their albums. The closest I had ever come to country rock music was Neil Young, who they, of course, loathed.
Well, without so much as a “come and get it,” he stands up and throws the bottle at me.
But he quickly then makes a few vital battle misjudgments. The first being that he misses me and hits the mirror. The second was his comic miscalculation that the glass coffee table that separated us would hold his weight when he stepped on it to get at me.
It didn’t even try, and his foot went straight through trapping him awkwardly. A drunk music legend wedged in a coffee table is reliably defenseless, but I prize the first rule of show business, “Never hit the act.”
So, from out of his kitchen Rudge comes flying through the air, shouldering into Ronnie’s chest, driving him backward over the sofa, overturning it and freeing his boots from the table and glass by sheer momentum.
Rudge screams at him five inches from his face. “Regis is with me, and he is on your side, you dumb fuck!”
Ronnie Van Zant, now pretty much a severe physical mess, stands up, walks around the frightened coffee table to me and gives me a hard, no balls hug, and says, “Sorry, man,” and that was that. I was in.
After Ronnie had left and while Rudge was trying to find his maid on the phone, he put his hand over the receiver and said to me, “You still want this job?” I told him that I did.
Ronnie proved to be what everyone else but me knew, a genius. And a good guy but a genuine tough. Kind of a country gangster. We got close enough but never friends. I left a few months before his plane went down and he died.
Reports said he had a bottle in his hand and was walking around as the plane headed for the ground. There can be no doubt.

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